a wise young guy told me yesterday to learn to forgive and forget. i wonder if it is something that i can do.

of course he was right. instead of blaming everything that went wrong, i should learn to cherish all the happening around me. cherish my family, friends, and life.

most of the time (at least once a month) i will have this same thought. learn to cherish everything and be happy. then somehow something will happen that pull my feeling downwards. and eventually i started looking for help again. if only i can be determined.

i'm someone who is still learning. i guess, i'm hoping that everyone around me will forgive and forget when it comes about me too..


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always been like this.. keep returning back to zero..

hahahaha...


it's been a long time, isn't it?


i'm getting older.. yet i'm scared of my unsecured future..

blah blah blah..

nobody cares anyway..

bye.. love you all


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I was really upset for the past few days. But surprisingly all my sadness were drown away already. Hahaha.. I'm so sleepy right now that I can't write any thing long so I'm just going to tell you (that is, anyone who care about me) that I'm alright right now.

Aiai.. aitsu wa ore ni ayamatta. hua hua hua...

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Ever since last night I started to crave for Nescafe. Up to this moment I had drank it three times, and the truth is it is like a forbidden drink to me because it will make me feel weak. Even for now I can¡Çt type this right. Whatever.

So I have been wondering myself what makes me long for it so much. Then I had just realized it. I usually cling for bitter taste whenever something big is bothering me. So I guess this time it¡Çs because of something big is actually bothering me, only that I didn¡Çt notice how important it was to me.

So that¡Çs it. Hahaha¡Ä

Hah.. apa la.. sebenarnya nak tulis mende lain. Tapi dah tak larat nak piker pape dah.

By the way.. Aiai.. ore wa henna yume wo mita. Aiai wa ore no koto mou doudemo ii to iwarete, shindemo kankei nai datte. Hontou ni kanashikatta.

De ne.. sono yume wa genjitsu ni natta. Demo sou iu koto wo itta no wa kimi jya nakatta.

Hontou ni kanashii yo...


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When my father told me that he and my mom were leaving for Shanghai on 10 August the first thing that came out of my mouth was, "Then you won't be around on my BIRTHDAY?"

He then promised me that he will celebrate it later.

Birthday was never a big deal for me actually but all of sudden I felt sad thinking that my parents won't be around. Not that we actually celebrated it before. Yet, I still felt sad.

But then again...

Allah Maha Adil.

He made me realised that there are still a lot of people who care about me. So I was so grateful right at this moment.

I thank God for His blessing.
I thank God for a wonderful parents that He gave me.
I thank God for great friends around me.

Thank you to both my parents for their love, and sacrifices.
Thank you to both my elder brothers who never neglected me even though they already have their own family to worry.
Thank you to both my younger brothers who still love me for the way I am.
Thank you Adik for always being there. Really appreciate it.

Thank you AiAi for being my greatest friends all these times.
Thank you to all chikara onna-s for being the strong sisters.(?)
Thank you to all my friends for their effort of throwing the surprise party for me.
Thank you Kak Min for the pretty bracelet.


Luv,
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